It's been awhile since I have posted.

I think that is a good thing=)

Yeah. It's kind of like that.

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should've known, I should've known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Baby I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake I didnt know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings;
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh
Try and catch me now
Whoa-Oh
It's too late
To catch me now.

You were the one.

the one I was going to spend the rest of my life with.

I knew it.

What happened?

What did someone say that you could believe about me?

I need answers.

I was falling in love with you.

Now I have just fallen

And I'm alone.

Life is NOT supposed to be like this.

I miss you daddy.

I'm just so tired
Won't you sing me to sleep
Fly through my dreams
So i can hitch a ride 
With you tonight
And get away from this place
Have a new name and face
I just ain't the same without you in my life

Late night drives
All alone in my car
I can't help but start
Singing lines 
From all our favorite songs
And melodies in the air
Singing life just ain't fair but
Sometimes i still just can't
Believe you're gone

And i'm sure the view from heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in heaven
Maybe we'llmake it through
One more year, down here

Feel your fire when it's cold in my heart
And things sorta start reminding me
Of my last night with you
I only need one more day
Just one more chance to say
I wish that i had gone up with you too

You won't be coming back 
And i didn't get to say goodbye
I really wish i got to say goodbye

I hope all is well in heaven
Cause it's all shot to hell down here
I hope that i find you in heaven
Cause i'm so lost without you down here

You won't be coming back 
And i didn't get to say goodbye
I really wish i got to say goodbye

Yeah. That one hurts. <3

=)

I can do this.

I am a strong, empowered woman. 

I do not need a man to make me complete.

I just need myself :)

I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none

There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening

*there are no words better than these to describe how I feel.

Is there anyone out there that can hear me? I'm calling out to you. 

It's a lonely world out there

I'm sick and tired of being alone.

I'm sick and tired of being wanted in ways I don't really want to be wanted. 

I'm sick and tired of waking up by myself.

I'm sick and tired of being stinking sick and tired<3

That's what I get for falling again...

...I can't seem to get you out of my mind. 

I don't want to fall to pieces

You win this round. 

But I'm winning the next. That you can count on. 

I'm fantastic

It's your loss really. 

I could rip you apart

I could rip you apart.

Into a thousand pieces.

I could scream at you.

Tell you all the things you did wrong. 

I could slap you and punch you.

Until it hurts you and not me. 

I could tell everyone your secret.

Embarress you in front of all you friends. 

I could hate you.

Hate you until my face turns red. 

You pick. Your wish is my command. (Apparently, I only live to serve you). 

turn down the lights
turn down the bed
turn down these voices
inside my head
lay down with me
tell me no lies
just hold me close
don't patronize
don't patronize me

i can't make you love me if you don't
you can't make your heart feel
somethin' it wont
here in the dark,in these final hours
i will lay down my heart
and feel the power if you wont
no you wont
cuz i can't make you love me
if you don't

i'll close my eyes
then i wont see
the love you dont feel
when your holdin' me
morning will come
and i'll do whats right
just give me till then
to give up this fight
and i will give up this fight

Tomorrow.

A heart will stop beating. 

A baby will never born. 

A baby will never take a first breath.

A baby will never be named.

A baby will never get the chance to live. 

To laugh.

To love. 

My heart hurts for you baby, and the decisions of your immature mother.

For your sake, I will name you.

Your name, unborn beautiful baby is Lee. 

I won't forget you, beautiful Lee. 

Can you tell my dad I say hi up in Heaven? 

If dreams could come true.

I would have you. 

Too much

I have too many feelings for such a small person. 

I'm too pocketsized to feel all these things at once.

My heart hurts. 

Do you want me?

Like I want you?

Or am I standing still?

I am not alone.

I'm surrounded by love. 

I have family that loves me, even though they are far away.

I have a best friend, who would drop everything for me. 

I am surrounded by roommates that put up with my bullshit everyday, but don't bitch. 

I have friends in lots of places, all of which care for me. 

So why is it, that without you, you one single person, I so feel alone?

There is a lump in my throat, and it won't go away, no matter what I do, no matter what I say. 

please just call me. 

The more boys I meet, the more I love my dog.

Carrie Underwood knows what the heck she's talking about. 

This boy here wants to move too fast
He sees my future as having a past
Well, I don't think so
I don't think so

That boy there, well he's playing a fool
He thinks he's funny and he thinks he's cool
We'll I don't think so
I don't think so

Cheap date, bad taste, another night gone to waste
Talking about nothing in so many words
It's not like I'm not trying
'Cause I'll give anyone a shot once

And, I , I close my eyes
And, I kiss that frog
Each time finding
The more boys I meet the more I love my dog

Here's this guy, thinks he's bad to the bone
He wants to pick me up and take me home
Well, I don't think so
I don't think so

Cage fights, PlayStation, X-Games, Raider Nation
Oversize pants with an ego to match
It's not like I'm not trying
'Cause I'll give anyone a shot once

And, I , I close my eyes
And, I kiss that frog
Each time finding
The more boys I meet the more I love my dog

Why can't they be like the one's that mean everything to me
The warm and loyal, open and friendly
It's not like I'm not trying
'Cause I'll give anyone a shot once

I close my eyes
And, I kiss that frog
Each time finding
The more boys I meet the more I love my

I close my eyes
And, I kiss that frog
Each time finding
The more boys I meet the more I love my dog

The more I love my dog

Sing it sister. 

A song.

well you might be a bit confused 
and you might be a little bit bruised 
but baby how we spoon like no one else 
so I will help you read those books 
if you will soothe my worried looks 
and we will put the lonesome on the shelf 

oh let’s get rich and buy our parents homes in the South of France 
let's get rich and give everybody nice sweaters 
and teach them how to dance 
let's get rich and build our house on a mountain 
making everybody look like ants 
from way up there you and I, you and I 

I don't know anymore.

I'm having another one of those days. 

A snuggle-with-your-teddy-bear-and-anything-else-within-a-5-foot-radius-day. 

I feel blah.

I feel ignored. 

I feel forgotten. 

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood